Wonder Boi Writes

7 weeks Til Spanish Heart: Meet Ren

It’s hard to believe we’re only 7 weeks from the release of Spanish Heart (even less if you’ll be in Ptown for Women’s Week. After three years of working with Ren and Lina, they feel like real people to me, and I certainly love them like cherished friends. I’m so thrilled about finally getting the chance to introduce them to you.  This week, I want you to meet Ren.

I’m not going to lie. In a lot of surface ways Ren is very much based on myself when I traveled to Spain.  She’s from a small town with supportive but overprotective parents.  She’s been out since high school, but due to her surroundings and insecurities, she’s never had any real experience with women. She’s young and brash, a little immature with a bit of chip on her shoulder, but ultimately she’s got gentle heart, and she desperately wants to be worthy of the faith other people put in her.    She goes to Spain looking for her first real taste of freedom and a chance to prove to everyone, including herself, that she has what it takes to be the strong, independent lesbian she wants to be.

Unlike me, however, Ren’s not in high school anymore.  She’s just finished two years at a junior college and getting ready to start at Illinois State University that fall. She’s feeling a lot of pressure to select a path for her life.  All her friends left town two years ago, and she’s been floundering ever since, but she still doesn’t know what she wants to study, much less what she wants to do with the rest of her life.  Add a beautiful woman to the mix, and poor Ren is just in way over her head.

I understand that asking some of you to climb into the head, and more importantly the heart, of a 20-year-old college student might not sound like a lot of fun.  You’re past that age and that stage in your life, and you’re not eager to relive all that angst.  I’ve even heard from a few of you who are worried you won’t be able to relate to “kids today.”  I get that. I’m now a married mother of a 4-year -old and a professional romance novelist.  I worried too about whether or not I could really relate to a junior college student who’d never had a meaningful relationship and no direction in life.

Then I remembered that sometime I still don’t know what I’m going to do for dinner, much less what the rest of my career will entail.  And a lot of the time, I have no idea what I’m doing as a parent, much less if I’m doing it right.  Then there’s women.  Oy, women.  I love them to death, and I want so much to be smooth and suave and sexy, but damn, even after 10 years with my wife, I’m still confused about women at least 50% of the time.

You see, the specifics of Ren’s conflicts might be in our pasts, but her emotions are ageless. The struggle to find your place in the world, your path in life, is something we never quite escape. We all have times when we fear our life is passing us by.  Feeling alone or misunderstood is not merely an experience of youth. Mostly though, I like to think that whether you’re eighteen or eighty, you’re going to find something to relate to, and maybe even love, in Ren Molson, because no matter what the world might tell us, no one is ever too old to fall in love.

Above is one of Ren’s theme songs, “I’m not Alright,” by Sanctus Real.  Below is the other, called “Scream,” sung by Zac Efron.


August 30, 2012 - Posted by | Uncategorized

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